helpless.

Why is it that whenever I'm alone, tears start to fall and i never know why I'm crying.

future.

There's so many things i wanna do, from A to Z list, only realizing, that i cant actually afford to do them :) It's okay.. right now, i should be concentrating on my future :) most of my friends thought i simply took my future for granted, im not serious of completing anything. sigh. am i?

anyways, Ninie. . . jiayou!

xoxo

hope.

It's been an up n down situation recently, but that's life. the more you get tested, the more you learn how life work. i hope i shall make it to the end!

my Saturday.

howie guys :)

it was really a moody saturday yesterday. lots of things happened, and cant find anyone to share. lucky enough, my cousin was there. at least, someone will realized if im gone mad, or if im made my way to the window. lol. No, no... suicide is never going to be the best solution.

anyways, yesterday.. went to watch movie again. things i can do to chill myself, at least that's the best i can do. apart from karaoke-ing :P i was waiting the Growns Up to be released actually. heard it's an awesome movie. saw some of its re-cap too!! :D guys, it's Adam Sandler in that movie!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyways # 2, it was The Expendables we watched.

a stunt movie, but have some laughed on it too. funny. great movie :D

then and now,

im still confused of where im heading to -_-

what's the best i can do to live my life?

14.08.10

I hate to feel this way, cause it's really really HURT!

My prayer for this girl :)

If one day, her world started to crash and burnt into pieces,

If one day, her hopes fade silently into the dust

If one day, her reality is the worst nightmare she could ever dream

If one day, her surrounds started to leave her one by one

If one day, there is no one can accept for who she is..

I hope she can still hang on.

as my prayers goes faithfully for her..

I pray for her, to be granted the power of ability to pass these phases and

move on..

I pray for her, to be granted the power of encouragement, so even when she's all by herself passing through those roads, she can talk to her heart - to waits, to be strong and to keep on walking along with her .. so she wont feel alone at all, even in the reality, she actually is.

I pray for her to be strong. to learn that everything happen for a reason.. to learn that she will gained the loves she had missed along the way, to learn that she will be loved by them, who had hates her.. and

to learn that she will not be left out

for ever.

I'll be wishing upon the stars, just for her, so she will have the right time to

fix everything..

to win back the hearts she had painfully lost.

she just needs a little more time.

i know.

to gain the happiness she used to have.

:)

xoxo

Hope.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

get me outta here.

arrrrrggggghhhhh!!!!!!

feel totally left out T___T

Changes.

phew! penatttt. tiring day for me again. tho i supposedly took this off day for 'day off'.. where i should have just relax and resting at home. but instead of doing so, i actually went out again, from morning till midnight. cashing money everywhere!! uhhhhhuuu.. i promised myself to start saving MANY YEARS ago.

anywaysss, i actually met my dearly childhood bestfriends today :) we dont get to gather like this most of the time indeed. masing2 busy with our own life. buddy cely is busy preparing things for her up-coming wedding, which what we're waiting for, gomoi & ujie busy with their works, beth with her family, mimie with her kl-lifestyle hood, cecelia.. since she was transferred to stock dept, she's getting busier than ever. while me, in the other hand, is busy looking for direction. i seriously dunno what im heading to, and it's kinda sucks. looking back at the time we used to had, it's kinda weird to see how things started to change the way we never thought it'd be. we used to text each other 100 times a day before, we used to squeeze ourselves on one bed just to make sure all of us were in the same room and we used to do things with our way, together....ee, i miss those days :')

emo. haha

need to sleep early tonight :) nitey nite guys.

xo

I'll find my way.

which i should have done long time ago.

Random Talk.

super duper tired -_- update: ive got a job! yay! and it's too far from where im staying at the moment. i move in with my sister for awhile, still looking around for a room to rent. i need to survive on my own. learn how to be independent. im not good in surviving myself in fact. so, here's a chance for me to prove "Ninie, you can do it! " it's just a common job btw, but at least, i have something to do rather to stay at home 24-7, calculating my gaining weights every single MINUTE! lol. tho i have to work til midnight, 11.00pm to be specific, i kinda likes this new job :)

Uhh, it's my sister's birthday today :) AUGUST, 6th. i have to work til midnight today, so im out of the cake cutting's guest list.. hehe but for you my dear sister, HAPPY BIRTHDAY sweet 16!! Muahehehehehe. age is just a numberrrrr.... Sorry, at times i caused millions of troubles on you, but i love you still, and always be. and i wish you all the best in your life.. mostly in your marriage and career :)

Happy Birthday!

May your new God bless you as always.

xx