Monday, May 30, 2011

Whenever we safely land in a plane, we promise God a little something. ~Mignon McLaughlin

Im homee! :D soo tired! but it was awesome! worth every penny! lol!

will update soon!


Thursday, May 26, 2011

It's like im losing you again :')

A friend knows the song in my heart and sings it to me when my memory fails .. la la la ~

dont know where should i start.

the make ups, pants, or toiletries?

cause im just too excited to leave! :D

God bless our journey! weeheeeeee !!!



Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Twin Otter?

no, seriously, i dunno how to spell this otter thing.

i was in kk since last Saturday, to meet my dearest sister and adorable Khayla (She is sooo lovable!) i flew with Mas wings again, on my way to kk and trust me, that moment, i seriously thought the plane was going to collapse in any minute, strongly because it was too small for the heavy rain & the strong wind. it shake and moved really hard, it suddenly fell below and started to shake again. and i saw some lights coming from the window, might be the plane's neon but i assumed it was a thunder.

Gosh, i was so panicked!
all of us screamed for like 5-10 minutes, and i saw a couple hugging to each other, how sweet :) but i was so alone in my row :( all i got is my chair to hold tight! and my other hand was looking for my phone, you know, just in case. the children started to cry, we're all screamed... my God, the fear seized me! my hand perspired, shake too hard and so do my heart beat. It wasnt really stable even on its landing!!!

Trust me, it was the longest 45 minutes ever in my whole life!!!

i swear it would be my last flying with poker.

until i got back yesterday.
janji tinggal janjiii... lol!

anyway, i was greatly shocked when we're already on board. i was so like this,

' .. seriously?? '

My, why must the plane would be that SMALLER! i started to feel hot, and cold, shaking.. i was certain everyone around me could hear my heart beating. there's no way i could turn back to find Boeing or Airbus! and there's no way i could run away like a crazy maniac begging for a big plane, well at least, a bit bigger than that??! .. as a record, there were only 5 of us on the Twin Otter.

we all got the window seat! and it still failed to calm me.

i started to get panicked when they told me we'll be transit to Kudat before heading to Sandakan. -__-
oh great, 45 minutes + 40 minutes = 85 minutes of misery! so then my panicked mind raced as fast as my fingers on my phone pad. & instead of pretending to fall asleep along the way, pretending to not know i was on the smallest plane, i prayed and leave all my worries to Him.

God, You're in charge now.

and wow! i never thought flying with Twin Otter could be that exciting!! i even got to see Simpang Mengayau from the top, it was so breathtaking views along the way. and i dont have to be Stewardess to talk with the pilot. how awesome!

here's the Twin Otter,

funny was, my bf was shocked and laughed real hard when i pointed him the Twin Otter soon after i reached Sandakan Airport.

he goes
"gila! ingat kapal poker besa ja.."

i replied
"NAH KAN!!!!"

he continue laughing. cis! i was scared to death and he still can smile2 and laugh2!

that's it.


Monday, May 23, 2011

Goooood Night!

goshhh, whatta day!

it was really tiring.
Maybank Community Day was absolute fun last Saturday.
and i had to catch my flight on its eve.
oh, ive been to the smallest plane today, but will blog these tomorrow.
cause all i need now, is a really good night sleep.

and get back to work tomorrow!

my! how times fly away really fast.

Nitey Nite guys.

Friday, May 20, 2011

There is always hope

i believe in miracle, i believe in God's work
i believe in hope.

There is always hope. no matter how hopeless. there is always hope.

God, bless her..
guide her..
give her the strength..
give her a chance God.. :')

in Your name, i trust.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Love, live, laugh?

My. Im not good in handling mind conflict. I feel extremely down today, n things did not goes exactly as planned.. All i need is a shoulder 2 lean on, but i guess, i'll b so alone with this headache. God...


When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out the door
She's running out, she run, run, run, run, run

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

i wanna sing my heart out loud!

why everything has to be bitch today?

something is totally wrong with my fan! im thinking of getting an air conditioner but is there any way i can get it without pay more? you know, in a good way?

i am desperately need one!!!! :((((

my bf a.k.a bestfriend forever a.k.a batman forever a.k.a baldi fulll!!
a.k.a you-know-what | and i seems to have a big issue today and i still have not received any text from him. i am tooooooooooooooooooo moody to call him! nah, it's okay!

my broadband is such a loser. it keeps disconnecting and i have to pull & stuck it back in different USB for d countless times!!! gila babi tul ni celcom. babi pun tia gila begini. cis!

i hate seeing Finn & Quinn get back together, leaving Rachel in disguise & sadness. i hate it! and i almost cry seeing Rachel in hurt :((

im a freak, i know.

my itchy isnt getting any better. im running out of cream, i can only buy it in Ranau. and im miles away from home. i so not into allergic thing :(

and my gosh, why Malaysia Airlines has to be so costly just tooooo fly to kk?
i wanna go home :((

i miss home.
i miss my family.

& this weekend, im packed with this Maybank activity.


i miss my late koko :(((

You caused a big hole in my heart, freak!

and it ache really really bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Hear me please! Marshmallow drowning :(

I'm so drained today. I dont feel like i have a grasp of myself since morning. tho i did woke up around 6am, wishing how great it would be if i dont have to go to work.

and my. it is holiday. people getting their day off. i am having mine too. (altho my guy have to work today, sad)

but i still find today is quite boring.

and i miss my family :(

i am more like this.

and i was cursing everybody this noon. even the car passed me by.

i need motivation. a really good one.

Lame Tuesday, and i should be happy.

she has a new lips!


click to enlarge.

Beautiful Wooden Sculptures


Monday, May 16, 2011

When they were busy exploring vietnam...

i was really busy choosing ice cream!


If it takes me 3+ hours fly for the best coconut, i would..

the best coconut ive ever tried was in ho chi minh.


Easy Breezy Cover Us!



Sweet like chocolate, even taste better!

my goshhh.
so cute!


Hear Me ROAR!

Howiee, Second post for the day!

i was thinking of ironing my baju kurung just now, and remember .. BISUK CUTI!!
Happy Wesak Day, people! :D

I realized that ive been constantly talk about the guy i am dating now :) I indeed would rather keeping our stories ourselves, rather than telling the world that we seeing each other, but HEY! what if tomorrow never comes? and the last thing you wanna do is telling the world you're in love?

my oh my. Life is really really short to live with REGRETS.

and have anyone told you, regret is soo painful?

it is, guys. it is. even the greatest bandage cant heal the wound. the scar still there mah kan. the best thing to do, is avoid being regret. :D HAHA me and my dear met in an ugly way, i have to admit. but things happened and i cannot undo or rewrite the past. He's been there through good and bad times. He lifted me up when i need it badly. He shows me the way when all i can think is get hitting by a car & die, or, eat lots of pills, overdose and die. He told me to be strong in my weakness moment. He cried to see i have to bear all the pains. He encourage me with every words. He gives me reason to stay on. and all i could do is run away & hiding from the truth. It was
another incident where my brain refuses to accept the situation. The sadness pierces me like a dagger. But that was over a year ago. I am really glad things goes well ever since :) I am taking every chance i have now, to tell him how much he mean the world for me, and how i thanked him for still loving me, especially in my weakest time.

We're getting better, i hope. cause i am tired to starts all over again.
The future is hard to predict, but lets just cherish each moment we have, will you? :)

o yea. ninie is getting emo. likeeeeeeeee, ALWAYS! Fiff!

ahh, seriously. forget what i said. im just being a lady who started to think does the world moves upward or backward? or not moving at all?


Happy Teacher's Day, Guru :D

Gooood morning!
Happy teacher's day 2 all teachers out there! N yes, to GTO a.k.a great teacher onizuka spcially. Lol!

To my teachers, Im sorry ive been bad in d class, n was dis so-called gangster wannabe. HAHA Altho, i cried once front of my buddies and d CIKGU DISPLIN. Haha but, without u teachers, i wont be there, blogging thru my lousy hp, haha, seriously, without ur taught n ideas, i might end up loafing around d street, wasting most my times with nothing, Or, might still depending on my dearest parents 4 monthly pocket-money.

I am greatly thankful for being punished when i scored bad, all the stress and 4 everything u guys have done 4 me. It makes me who i am today :)

PEACE \(^-^)/

Anyway, my man created dis quote on his fb. I know pretty well that he's talking about me. Basically, he wrote 'no saving but more shopping' ..

and gladly, most of his friends replied:

a) Pelaburan bha tuuu~ (i say, PELABURAN YANG BIJAK :p you can sell it afterwards, good or what? )
b) Datinn Sukkkaaa supinggggggggg!! (i say, everybody does! :D)

Haha my gosh. I am seriously addicted 2 online shopping since last 2009, you know, when i had my first salary :P I aware enough of how myself cant control by not clicking dat order form. To be frank, 2 receive parcel, open it, try it on, shows it to my bf & bff, leave it hanging beautifully inside the wardrobe.. my, it is such a wonderful feeling! :D

dear, i try la ho. Slow n steady :).
Dats it.


Sunday, May 15, 2011


It would be the loneliest feeling standing cold under the rain all alone. But if you were there hugging me tight, just right there by my side, then I hope it rains for the rest of my life.



dine at Subway Restaurant yesterday with my guy & jijul, a dearly friend of us, for a match between M.U & Black burn. Oh, by the way, Congratulations Manchester United! my, they have won for the 19th times in English league. how awesome was that?

anyhoo, we asked this guy (but really he-she like) for a bill at d end of the match. and he goes:

he-she: okay.. semuanyaaaa.. emm, RM72.80
us: HAH? mahal juga.
he-she: yala, memang mahal. ni restaurant kan, restaurant yang.. emm, okay .. cuba kmu p sanaaa restaurant, mahal jg tu.
(as he handed the bill to my guy)

us: mahal juga ni, suda la tia sedap.
he-she: aii, tia sedap tapi abis juga pun makannn..
us: manada abis, ni masi banyak lagi tinggalan
he-she: ni, kmu tapau ni chicken wings..
jijul: ni sa tapau mau kasi makan kucing sa..

few minutes later. he back with the balance.

he-she: okay la.. memandangkan boss kami baik hati, dia kasi kurang kamu suda.
us: berapa dia kasi kurang?
he-she: emmmmm... (looking carefully at the bill)
us: *waiting*
he-she: kami rugiiii.... emmmm, 80 sen.

he-she: ishh, okay la ba. cerewet btul. (sambil cubit lengan jijul!!)


oh my gawd. he is so cute! if only i can captured his face reaction and post it here. oh my. It's Monday again. timeeee flies fast. dont you think so?

happy monday guys.

later ~

let it go.

Aww :)

My greatest perhaps.

Love :)

Rachel, i got your back! :D



What have I done? I wish I could run
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight
Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send down a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right


Universal Studio!

Booked ticket yesterday. dunno what has got into my mind.
i called all my bff. and none of them can make it.
one has to go to Korea.
one is leaving to Pulau 3.
one is busy preparing for her wedding (keenly to wait :D)
bla bla bla..

thinking of going alone :((

i really wanna see the Universal Studio!
it amazed me when i first saw it in tv.

so, i called my man.
and he said 'cannot cuti la daling...'
waaa.. sad. sad.

and Roxanne came in my mind. called her

we'll be leaving to Singapore this coming 28th!



seriously. what this all about??
im not good in virus, pc and such. let me know, what is this thing?
it so freaking annoyed, cause i cant browse my page perfectly, it keeps appeared. and it said i had a virus from

shit. like, seriously?
how can i get my page back to way it used to be?

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Thursday, May 12, 2011

7-Heaven Dessert Parlor

quite moody today. felt completely lost and headache all day. probably, because of the person i currently get annoyed, or, too much not-so-important-things-but-do-it-anyway. they indeed proved me how evil in human form, really do exist.

anyhoo, my man took me out today. he fetch me from work, went to see movie, to the mall and just when i need him to cheer me from my bad day, he goes otherwise.

'you looks fat'

and i started to get really-really moody.
i knew he did not mean it in a bad way, but fat seems to be a sensitive word for me nowadays.
one Vietnamese & one local had congratulate me for having a 'child' inside.
and yes, i am not pregnant.

but the restaurant he took me somehow smells nice.
it calls '7-Heaven Dessert Parlor'

oh look! it is an ice cream hanging there!

how cool is that?

i only had cola float tho.
let's see what i'll have for dinner in my next visit :)