Thursday, June 25, 2009

Unwell but okay!

It is hours before departure.
Mum will be arriving in more hours to count, no injection, and i havent actually buy mask for the prevention. Im not in the mood for the journey preparation and my workmates keep asking to stay away from them for a week after come back. haha my pleasure. The boss should be the one who said that. I need a week offday without any salary deduction! hehe

ahh, so late la the clock to 5pm.
gotta go.


Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Transfomer : Revenge of the Fallen

it was awesome!
i was quite sad at first to know that the two halls were fully reserved at 8.00pm, but luckily, they open the third hall specialize for the desperate transformer's fan, like me. hahaha so, we sat 10th row from the screen, with my sister in the couple seat. hehe whatever. as long as we have seats. I Love it! Optimus Prime, BumbleBee.. You see, the Megatron didnt die, so the 3rd episode should be shown in public soonest! yes! i cant wait!
It's a movie worth for remembering, like, for the rest of my life :P
well, ive received a surprised call from Manila just now, unexpected one and honestly, i cant understand the words he saying. haha it's like, i nodded my head confidently to the person who cannot see the nodding. Very clever one! hehe
well guys, better go and watch the Transformer! Highly recommended from me :P

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

In life and love, you learn that there comes a time to let go and move on ♥

This is the story ive received from my friend, Claire :)

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking.

I want a divorce.. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage.

But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me.

But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door every morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions... She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed.

So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset.
I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life.

My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs.

Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears.

I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead...
How could a person changed just like that?

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah..blah..blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real
happy marriage!

Monday, June 15, 2009

Life without friendship, is like, the sky without the sun.

Myspace Friendship Quotes


If you have your friends, you know you're not walking alone. You know you can always have a shoulder to lean on. AND will be there through the bad and good. that's why i love my girlfriends like a watermelon. Juicy and Yummy :P

One cold night, i was lying on my bed, with the magz i supposedly read, felt hopeless, It's seems like this world had stop moving. Oh well, things like that. I dunno what got on me, cause i looked bad that time. Negative, it was. I looked through the window, just a naked building and some trees covered its side, i took my HP, text my friend.

" I m Tired of Living "

Never thought i would said that words. Im a girl who loves to enjoy a moment in life, the one who believes things happen for a reason. God, what's wrong with me? Many people lived their life with unfortunate condition, No Home, No Food, No Loves. Sleeping with a bullet, watching a live war movie.. this is what life means to them. How could i said im tired of living mine?

20 second of letting my mind went away, my HP rang. it was a friend i texted the stupid words moment ago,

" Ninie!! What happen? Dont say like that!! U know, you're the reason for me to be strong, everyday. Ninie!! "


yes, how stupid i was. I never get tired of live my life, it offers so many things for me, I only have to choose. To be Happy or Not to be. The truth is, I have a wonderful life. Cause i have the best person on earth to be my other half, the love-est family im born with, the greatest friends im gifted from above.



Just that, we're all get to feel lonely sometimes.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Terminator : Salvation

Happy Sunday :):)

last night was awesome. me and my sister went to Kg Nelayan for Steamboat-dinner, just the two of us. Her Fiance cant make it and so too my dede. Instead of feeling lonely in the open air seafood restaurant, we both actually enjoy the moment, esp when there's lotsa ppl, saw everyone taking chances to take picture with the dancers, and we both, doing our best, eating. I had my Puding Kelapa for dessert. Super Delicious!

10pm, we both left the restaurant and headed to Pavilion for a movie.

me: Pa mau tingu ni
Her : Hanna Montana
me: Mana2 ja.
Her : ba, beli ticket la.
me: jap.
Her : Terminator la kita tingu.
me: yes!

Terminator : Salvation

The movie was Fabulous! i love the whole part of the story, the actions, surprises, the Resistance and the machines.. Superb!

John Connor and Marcus Wright are awesome!
AND actually, we did noticed Connor looks a little bit like David Beckham.
That makes the movie even more exciting!

He is.

Do you see the similar?

Bravo to the Terminator teams!
Im waiting for Transformer #2 to be released.
Cant wait for it!!

That's all for now.

Saturday, June 13, 2009


Hello Saturday!

i spent 1 hour to cry over my HP this morning.
u know, like crying without tears?
but, im so happy it's okay now.
I fix it myself.
Hurray ninie!!

i wont let it fall into pieces again.
or i lost another ringgit to fix it.

anyway guys, i wish you all - have a great saturday!!

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Graduation, Friends Forever!

my hp finally fixed! the ah chai took 2 weeks to fix it, but not going to complaint cause, my hp finally can be used AND that's what matter the most ^^
my ex-course mate made us this ;

she put my name near my sweet friends Beat, Gleat, BB and Roses. It touched me and i had actually forgotten the bad words she said about us haha u know, u living in a place where some people said u have a nice hair while u look terrible with the hair, compliment for your braveness but talked about ur stupidity at your back. But well, God, who cares. Cause i still miss the moment we all shared together. and id like to do them again.
That the song we sang in tears.
Tho the rythm was so sumbang, but we felt the emotion. At least, we shared the same feeling that day haha gosh, i miss everyone.
for my coursemates, Let's have a blast moment on May Next Year, i said i will do it and now u see, im working on it hehe
til then, TATA!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

ღ T A G ღ

1) Full name? R J A
2) Single or Taken? Taken.
3) Sex? Female
4) Birthday? on July
5) Sign? Cancer + Crab
6) Sibling(s)? The youngest daughter.
7) Hair colour? Dark Hazel
8) Eye color? Black
9) Shoe size? 7
10) Height? when i was 15, it's 154cm but i dont think i have grown taller these years.

1) Who is/are your best friend(s)? Them ♥
2) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Yes. ♥♥
3) Did you send this to your crush? No.

1) Where is your favorite place to shop? Im fine with any place.
1) What kind of shampoo do you use? Pantene.
2) What are you most scared of? Jesus but still ♥ Him.
3) What car do you wish to have? BumbleDee :)
4) Who is the last person that called you? My friend, Bbey.
5) Where do you want to get married? When the time has come.
6) If you could change anything about yourself what would it be? to own a magical power.
7) What was your first car? i dont have any.

1) Colours? Pink, white and blue.
2) Number? 7
3) Food? Tauhu.
4) Subjects in school? English
5) Animals? I wish to have a baby bear.
6) Drink? Cola
7) Celebrities? Jay Chou. Eva Longaria and Adam Standler.

1) Given anyone a bath? Yes
2) Bungee jumped? No
3) Broken the law? Kinda.
4) Gone skinny dipping? No.
5) Made yourself throw up? No.

1) Red? Striking!
2) Do you like filling these out? - Answer?
3) How many people are you sending this too? Let's see.. 4-5 maybe
4) Who will send it back? Dunno.
5) Gold or Silver? Silver.

1) What are you listening to right now? The sounds of aircond.
2) Who is sitting next to you right now? No one.
3) Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? My Loved Ones.
4) Who do you admire? Him.
5) What makes you happy? My Loved Ones.
6) How many buddies on your list? Many.
7) What do you like to do? Singing.
8) Do you like yourself? Yes.
9) Have you ever hated any person in your family? No.
10) Favorite place to visit? Mountain and Island.
11) Favorite Month? July
12) Night or Day? Day
3) Rain or Sun? Rain.
14) Scary or Happy Movie? Happy
15) Career? Chartered Accountant. Amen.

1) Loved someone so much it made u cry? Yes.
2) Broken a bone? Almost.
3) Played Truth or Dare? Yes
.4) Been in a physical fight? Yes.
5) Been on a plane? Yes.
6) Come close to dying? Maybe.
7) Been in a sauna? No.
8) Been in a hot tub? Yes.
9) Swam in the ocean? No. Siring-siring seja hehe
10) Been in the back of a police car? Yes for filing a report.
11) What do you think about soap? Cute?
12) Worst song you ever heard? "Wawaaaa blakaka ngerrreeerrzzhuauuaua " - my bro's tape!
13) Best song you ever heard? We're the champions.
14) Stupidest thing you've ever done? Standing on the center of the road and waiting for a car to hit me.
15) What's your bedroom like? Loads with un-used stuff.
16) Have a lava lamp? No.
17) Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? No.
18) Your crush? Ohh.. someone just confessed.
19) Most prized possession? My Gonop.
20) Vegetarian? No.
21) Good driver? The last time i was in the driver's seat, the public said im driving like a snail. Worst than a snail in fact.
22) Good at sports? Back at secondary.
23) Good actor/actress? Yes, if i take a mother's role.
24) Good dancer? Used to be.
25) Shy? Quite a bit.
26) Good storyteller? Sometimes.
27) Chicken pox? Yes.
28) Sore throat? Many Times.
29) Stitches? Yes.
30) Bloody nose? May be.
31) Cold? Yes.

1) Enjoy parks? Yes.
2) Like picnics? Yes.
3) Like school? No.
4) What school? UiTM.
5) Collect anything? Dress.
6) Like to shop? YES.
7) In trouble a lot? Yup.
8) What is one thing you want? Lasting Happiness.

1) Eat a live hamster for a million dollars? Hahahaha No.
.2) Go to a Hanson concert if you had a free ticket? Yes. I was a fan back in 90's.
3) Kill someone you didn't know for 15 billion dollars? Will consider. haha
4) If you were stuck on an island, who would you want on the island with you? Doraemon.

* Tagging: Everyone who loves tagging :):) Thanks Shaf for the tag ^^

The weather makes me crazy.

headache. i went to Sabah Tourism for some things to be settled this morning, and the freak weather which is extremely hot, kills me. well, almost. okay, blame it on me for not using any umbrella cause the previous one was stolen. Bless that person.

Anyway...... Happy Tuesday Everyone :):)

cheers from me~

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Mungkin Nanti

i was at home, alone this evening. sis went attending our cousins' wedding, two houses, i cant go cause i m sick, and still do. my dad went to buy something. there me alone, trying to play on the latest Jay Chou's DVD but the player cant recognized the Cd.. ruined my mood for like few minutes!! huhu anyway, my dede called me this evening, checking on what im doing and he know how to cheer me just the way ah ha ah ha i like it.. hehehe

him : masi flu lagi?
me : tidak.
him : tu suara ba.
me : .. tadi i watched the movie d tv, blonde and blonder, the other boleyn girl..bla bla bla bla bla bla bla .. bla bla bla
him : oooo
me : terus kan, bla bla bla bla bla
him : Kijap, u know the peter pan ka?
me : huh?
him : sebab your voice macam dia suda.. yang menyanyi dari hidung.. " dan mungkin bila nanti.." .. suara hidung ni, hehe
me : @#&!# ..
him : hahahahhaahahhaha

but the song remind me the days i was at the mountain. They played it almost everyday at the hut and i remember one western lady asked me if that Ariel who sang it, i nodded tho i was confused. She knew the song cause the bus she ride with, played it along along the way from Sandakan to Kinabalu Park. She even thought of buying the album. haha and mentioned Ariel good looking too. hehe but she dont know he sing from the nose. hahaha my dede's idea!

well, im feeling sleepy already. the ayam is berkokok now.. as a warning for me to go bed NOW!! hehe Nitey Nite everyone! Sweet dreams~

the small village and the happiness they live with.

I watch a Korea's channel just now, i forgot the title but the show is about a small village, where it'll be demolished by the end of this year.. Poor them! They have live there for many years already and yes, you can see the happiness from the faces. A candid camera caught a happiness moment of one family who happen to pass the road.. The old lady and man were holding hands together, and the son walked with them at the sides, laughing and talking.

Surprised been greeted by the reporter, the lovely adults said they're on their way back home from the local restaurant after celebrate a parents' day. The son gave them a letter as a gift! *sweet*

Another young couple who own a home in that village were asked by the reporter - " What is your dream for this village ", they looked at each other and just smiling without saying anything. The answer hides in their silent smiles. Whatever the answer may be, Im sure it's must be a good one. Did you know that they also plant the vegetables on the roof? and shared the Veges with the neighbours. How simple life is.

and all the people they interviewed look so happy! Even knowing the fact that they supposedly should already find a new place to move on. I wonder if their local authorities will change their mind to NOT demolish the homes. It's a village where people live with hope. A happiness where cannot be bought by money. A memory that lasts forever. I wish they can see the hopes shining in their eyes.

If lots of small village like this were changed to a city where we obviously know with many high buildings or - u name it- , what will happen to the villagers? and the tradition they have live with? the future?

God bless these people.

Friday, June 5, 2009

The Flu and Concentrate Relationship.

i dont know how many times i have been sneezing for the past 4 hours.
blame it on my nose and the running liquid.... Ewww!!!!
True, i have this FLU.
i was at home the whole night yesterday, how can i get this infection?

..Probably from Paris and Nicole, my sister's children ---- the turtles. they're there with me.

anyway, now i realize that i cant actually concentrate in doing my works with this temporary disease..I frequently go to the washroom and im ran out of my tissue already, Nasib baik ada tissue tandas. Free tu. hehe back to the concentration topic, i cant pay enough attention, i wrongly write the figures in the cheques, i almost die cause i thought i had lost my company's money and i gave my mate chicken instead of fish.

my boss seemingly pretending to be [Hey-I-Dont-care-About-you]'s attitude, cause she keeps asking me to do a minor stuff [ im suffering from my uncomfortable situation! ] while i have other things to do, In fact our office Boy can actually do the stuff. Yes, i can be so moody when im sick. haha who doesnt?

plus, my mate looked at me for like 2 second and while covered his mouth, he said,

" Waa ninie, H1N1 ka??? "

i was like.." Bagussssss..."
how come you joked about H1N1? some people died because of it. right? but anyway, i think i should go next to him and spread the virus cause i believe in "sharing is caring" term :P

i hope i'll recover real soon cause i cant stand the itchy. U know, like, when your nose feel so itchy, you started to sneeze, your eyes turn to red and the liquid is on the way to your mouth... Ewww!!!! haha i have my dear tissue ba!! hehe take care everyone. Stay away from Internet, cause u'll get stuck with it for hours and forget to do your work.. just like me. cherio!!


Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Back 2 Back Movies~

Back to work..
haish.. so lazy to work o. I have so many works to be done as i was away last week. tapi sempat blogging hehe.. No, i dont want 2 get killed by this stress, okay. :P
anyway, my cuti-cuti malaysia was fabulous!
ive gotta met my ex-classmates and hanging out together. awesome i can say.
Laughing all the way, EVEN inside the monorail.
who cares about the eyes that staring at us.
anyway # 2,
me and my friends went to Berjaya Times Square for a movie.
wait, correction, for Movies.
we watched two movies, in row.
1st Movie,
was Angels and Demons.
I thought hantu-hantu or aliens or any scary objects will appeared in this movie,
but none.
i was waiting for more than half an hour until i asked my friend ;
Me : San, mana demons dia ni.
Susan : Huh?
Me : yang hantu2 ba.
Susan : Nda, maksud tu demons ialah orang jahat. Yang angels tu orang baik. Bukan hantu-hantu ni.
Me : . . . . . . [ bingung ni ]

it was okay la.
How all the codes to be solved.
at least, i'll have the picture of how the Rome really looks alike.
all the angels monumen.
un-quite satisfied with the first one,
we queqed again for the second movie.
Night at the Mesuem Meseum 2
I love it

highly recommended :):) well, that's it. im glad to meet my friends. I have a great time, spending a week with them. hehe.. well,