Egokah aku?

am i?
Maybe :) we tend to be one when we in need something. Something that completes & makes you happy. but it'll also happened otherwise, when you needs it so badly but because of this Ego, you refused to fight for it. You'd rather keep your ego than shows to others how in need you are.

i can best examined it in LOVE.

You met her. You fall in love. You dating her. You fought. You call it off. She went away. She came back. You say no words. You still love her. You waits for her to say. No one says anything. She walk away and still, you didnt say anything. Until she's gone completely out of your sight. You regret.

and your friends congratulated you for keeping your ego
and that's how you loose her.

or maybe ;

You had a fight with your BESTFRIEND. One night, she calls you to ask how you doing. Instead of apologizing you blame her for the fight. The next morning, she got hit by a car and died. You wanna say how sorry you were but you missed the chance.

Again, your surrounds congratulated you for your ego.
it's just makes thing worse, right?

It's okay to loosen it up once awhile if that's the best for everyone.. cause seriously, life is too short to live with regrets. im not perfect either, i have my ego too :P but let's us try to control our egos wisely.. cause the world cannot hold too many pains.

Anyway, actually, i was trying to show you guys this song by WALI but i end up mumbling around haha It's very sad song. You can tell the sadness from the song itself.. It's funny how you cant get something that you really want. IT MAKES YOU DESPERATE. and selfish.

well, enjoy :)
xo

Ku tak pernah merasa
Gundah di hatiku, Ketika denganmu
Saat kau, Kau belai rambutku
Kau temani aku, Kau basuh lukaku

Kini semua berlalu
Karena engkau tak memilihku

Salahkah aku mencintaimu
Walau kutahu kutak dihatimu
Egokah aku memilikimu
Walau kutahu kau tak memilihku
Kuharap tuhan cabut nyawamu
Agar tak ada yang milikimu

Sadarkah kini ku tak rela
Iman ku telah sirna
Mimpiku tak nyata

Kini semua berlalu
Karena engkau tak memilihku

Salahkah aku mencintaimu
Walau kutahu kutak dihatimu
Egokah aku memilikimu
Walau kutahu kau tak memilihku
Kuharap tuhan cabut nyawamu
Agar tak ada yang milikimu
Kuharap tuhan cabut nyawamu
Agar tak ada yang milikimu